Moscato...

Say Word...


My posts have been sporadic because I have been researching content and recording videos in an attempt to further legitimize my vision for this blog and provide worthy material.  Please rock with me as I have very few clues as to what I am actually doing :).  Last night, in the midst of yet another thunderstorm, I looked around my bedroom and began to count my blessings.  Material things are amazing but a sense of peace and security are irreplaceable.  While attempting to take my own advice, I wanted to relax and create a serene atmosphere for the hard-working hubs.  I poured us a glass of wine and we had a combination of agitated and stressful exchanges that seemed to be tied directly to the pattern of the storm raging outside.  While I sipped my Moscato, it occurred to me that it would be beneficial to temper my mood to the sweetness and aromatic wine I was drinking versus allowing hellion rainfalls to be the facilitator of ambiance.  Whether I was tipsy, tired or tantalized, the improvement of the energy was beneficial to all parties.  Perception can be changed in an instant.  Allow your rain waters to enrich rather than flood.

Marriage...

I have said it once and I will say it until the end of my days...Marriage is 75 percent commitment and 25 percent romance, love, lust, sex, finances, intimacy and all of that other stuff.  There is a place in which you have to operate on a spiritual plane because your spouse will river-dance on your last nerve and no apologies will be given while doing so.  One reason divorce happens so frequently is not because people don't love or have an affinity for one another but we have boiling points that stay on a slow simmer most of the time.  We don't relax and allow our spouses to be vulnerable and safe in the understanding that the union is secure.  I need to be able to be my most basic self and still have the love and compassion of my husband.  The aforementioned in much easier said than done.  To be honest, some days it feels darn-near impossible.  I am learning that if the issues is not going to be of  importance next week, next month or next year, then maybe I ought to reserve my mental energy for issues that truly take precedence in my life.  The universe is filled with matter ready to spontaneously combust at any given moment, I am choosing to be easy.  Wish me luck as I go attempt peace.

Feet...

As I peruse the inter-webs looking for inspiration, it occurs to me that I am a BIG procrastinator.  I handle many projects simultaneously, however, it can be very small things that will take me out of the mental and have me fixated on the physical.  Last night, I rammed my toe into the side of the bed in the dark.  This is not a new occurrence for me as I am generally clumsy but I managed to bruise it pretty good and today it's swollen.  Why am I sharing this?  I think I wanted to be transparent about myself in order to improve myself.  I am allowing a hurt toe to interfere with my workout that I have been putting off for months.  Before this incident, there were a series of other pitfalls that made this transition into healthy living seem daunting.  Why do I have this fear of self-improvement?


Time to put on some music and get this exercise party started, damn it! #letsgo

Genesis...

I am sitting here thinking about what I want to do with my time.  After many years of working in a profession that left me emotionally drained, I decided to give this "stay at home" mom thing a shot for a while.  What I didn't count on was as my children grew, they would grow more independent and needed less "mommy care".  I am now in a place where I am trying to recapture who I am and what my purpose is in life.  I believe that each of us has several different purposes and that many lives intersect in order to make a collective whole.  This is a journey of self-discovery.  My interests are vast.  I am deep and deeply shallow at the same time.  I long to go to far away places almost as much as I love the comfort of my own home.  My goal is to share myself and to partake of what the world has to offer...Let's go.